From Time to Time

From time to time I get an itch to write and obviously I haven't had that itch for quite while since I haven't blogged anything since the beginning of the year. My friend Cellarmistress reminds me periodically that I really should write more so here you go friend! My life really hasn't become any less average but now that the monstrous amount of snow that we got this winter is gone and summer is finally here, maybe things will get better!

If you know me...at all...you know that guys are on my mind pretty much all the time! Today is no exception sadly. But lets not talk about the newest guy in my life that is sure to break my heart soon, lets talk about ALL of them!

When I was younger, I just went with the cliche that all men are jerks and only if you are lucky will you find one of the few good ones. Yes Disney warped me as a kid and I really thought my Prince Charming would suddenly fall into my lap so there really was no point in finding good in all the other guys out there. I think this may be one of the reasons I never dated much in college, I didn't believe guys could be good. Lets face it, in high school and college, I had very few guy friends and the ones I did have weren't all that close of friends or I called them a friend simply because I had a huge crush on them. The first would be Fro Boy. We will call him this because when he came to visit my freshman year in college, he had grown his white boy hair out and it looked strangely like a fro! Fro Boy and I had been "friends" since my freshman year in high school when we were in theater together. Over the course of my high school career, I crushed on him on and off mostly because he was nice to me. This may sound odd and some of my friends may wonder why I always fall for the guys that just want to be my friend. Well here's the answer, guys weren't nice to me in high school and no, I did not date.

Now, I'm not going to get into all the guys that were jerks to me; lets keep this to the good guys. So back to Fro Boy; he really was one of the good guys. We hung out all through high school and when he graduated (he was a year ahead of me) and went out of state to college, we started emailing and actually became better friends. When he was home for breaks, we spent quite a bit of time together and he even came and hung out with me and the girls I was nannying for in the summers. When I went off to college to another state, we saw each other even less but emailed even more. Midway through my freshman year, he left school and moved back home so we saw each other a bit more when I made it home. I was in a sorority in college and we had a spring formal and I needed a date so I called him up. He came down and this is sadly where our story ends and I admit, I'm to blame. How you may ask, I was a jerk. I did not pay a lot of attention to him and even went out of my way to avoid him. Why, I can't tell you, and yes I do regret my behavior that weekend. After he left on Sunday morning we only saw each other once and never really talked again. For this, I am sorry. My mom has kept me somewhat updated on him and he has gone through some pretty rough times but from what she tells me, he's doing pretty good now! I wouldn't know for myself though since he never accepted my friend request on Facebook.

In college I met another one of the good guys that we will call GI Joe. GI Joe was in the National Guard which is really the only reason I give him this name. GI Joe was there for me during my sophomore year when I was going through a lot of crap in my life. He was there for me when I sometimes felt like I had no one else. My roommates were beyond jerks, my dad went through a quadruple bypass and life in general was unexciting. GI Joe was actually dating one of my sorority sisters so I knew he was off limits which was good for me because I could only think of him as a friend. We had a standing breakfast date every M/W/F after our 8am class and lunch with my sisters and his frat brothers on a regular basis. When I invited one of his brothers to go to our semi formal in the fall, he was the one I went to at the end of the night when my date didn't seem to want to hang out with me much now that all his brothers were around at the after party at their house. My date may have decided a few days earlier though that we weren't going to go anywhere when I ran into him on campus and called him GI Joe rather than his name! Yeah, that wasn't a good move on my part but he knew we were friends and knew I was coming out of lunch with GI Joe. He never said anything about it, but I think that really bothered him. It really was an accident though! My date and I stayed acquaintances but GI Joe and I stayed pretty good friends until he graduated and we lost contact.

After college, I moved to "the big city" and after a lonely year, I joined a young professionals group and started making friends right and left. At first, I mostly hung out with the guys, which if you haven't gathered by now, was very odd for me. This is the point in my life that I started opening up my eyes to the good guys, that I now realize, are all around! Over the next few days, I'm going to focus my energies on the good guys and sharing them with you because they deserve to be shared with the world! On a selfish side, I'm hoping this will also help take my mind off of the new guy too!